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I just listened to Carol Tuttle’s podcast from August 3, 2009 “Learning to Live True to ME…” and towards the end of the radio show she responds to a few callers.  These last few minutes were amazing for me and just what I needed to hear right now.  Carol told one caller to enjoy the journey and process of this life, and not give herself a timeline as to when she needs to get past an issue.  This life is about the process we are all on to improve, so we need to enjoy it and be happy while we’re experiencing it all.  Carol has been practicing the Law of Attraction stuff for 18 years, and she still practices it daily and is still dealing with issues.

Another thing she said which was awesome was that out of all of the information that she has out for people, she says that Energy Profiling should be learned first to get to know our true nature.  I thought that was so interesting that she thinks it is the number 1 thing that everyone should learn about first.  And as I think about that, I agree with her.  I was introduced to Remembering Wholeness years ago and I liked it.  I read her next book It’s Just My Nature! when it first came out in 2009 and it completely clicked with me and I haven’t been able to stop talking or thinking about it.  It has done wonders for me in learning about who I really am and honoring myself, and also honoring everyone else and not expecting others to be like me.  So click here for the Energy Profiling website – that is where to start.  You can buy the book “It’s Just My Nature!” from there, she has specials on there frequently where you get the book and the online course and something else for a good price.  I’d suggest doing that.  Or you can just buy the book from Amazon.com or some other place.  The next step after you figure out what your energy type is.  You don’t determine it by how you act right now – because alot of us aren’t acting who we TRULY are.  I had acted completely different for 24 years.  This isn’t a personality test.  It is about your energy.  It might take a while to figure out your true Energy Type, but it is so worth it!  They have a few ways of helping us figure out what our true Energy Type is.  Then once you know that, then go to Dressing Your Truth to learn about how to dress the way that is honoring to your energy.  It really does make a difference.  Everyone who has gone through this system says it is life changing, and it really is!  It is amazing information and I am SO grateful for it!!!

I just bought the Type 2 Dressing Your Truth Online Course while it’s on sale, it’s too bad I don’t get credit for the stuff I buy for myself!  I feel so much better now that I have bought it, because I had buddied up on a course with someone and I have felt guilty about it for months.  I try to be a very honest person, but I was trying to save money (of course, that’s been the story of my life – but I’m working to change that!) and I thought I was justified.  But I’ve made things right by buying my own and it is amazing how much better I feel about myself.  It was strange that as soon as I clicked the button to purchase it and the Receipt page came up, I felt a definite stress-release and happiness.  I thought I would have felt bugged or more stress since it was more money I was spending, but it was instead a very good thing.  And I remembered that money is just a trading tool, and since I love the Carol Tuttle stuff and it has been so helpful to me then of course I will pay her for her services.  It is always better to do what is right, no matter what.

This morning I woke up very grumpy and tired.  I haven’t been sleeping much the last week, and I certainly didn’t want to get up at 6am to exercise.  So I grumbled to myself while getting ready and starting to exercise, and then soon after, my leg started hurting.  I haven’t injured my leg, so I wondered why it was hurting.  But then I realized the mood I had been in and that I was probably causing my leg to hurt so that I didn’t have to exercise since I was so tired.  Unfortunately I couldn’t finish, but I wanted to consciously turn my day around so that I didn’t cause lots of problems for myself today.  So I immediately changed my attitude and started being grateful for things.  It’s 11am now and things have gone well!

I have been having so much fun the last 6 months learning about Carol Tuttle’s Energy Profiling and Dressing Your Truth, and I have loved sharing it with a few other people.  I wish I could share it with everyone, it is so amazing!  I’ve recently learned what Energy Types my children and husband have, and it has already helped so much in how I treat them and think about the way they are.  This helps me to not judge the things I consider to be their weaknesses, but are just different ways of doing things than I would do, and it is part of who they are.  Knowing my own Energy Type continues to help me understand myself better as well, and is one of the most beneficial things I have learned about on My Quest.

Here are two pictures of my sisters and I.  The first one is before any of us knew about Carol Tuttle’s Energy Profiling, and the second is Thanksgiving Day (which my husband took!) when we are all Dressing our Truth. This has helped each of us so much!

It has been a long time.  Today I realized some things that I needed to write down.  I have been spending so much time with photography, and loving it, that I have let many other things slide by with hardly a notice.  I know that when you love what you do and don’t want to stop, that is a good thing but also can be a bad thing.  Good because we should all do what we love, or love what we do, and bad because it can consume all of our thoughts and time and we neglect other worthy things.  I am very guilty of this, and it makes me feel guilty.  So I know that somehow I need to greatly reduce my photography time so that I am not neglecting all of the other things in my life that need attention.  I have also realized that I have let myself “forget” to be positive and grateful.  I have been complaining quite often the last few weeks and being negative about things, which by the law of attraction it is bringing more negative situations into my life.  I need to reverse that immediately before I get down too deep.  And the last thing I realized is that when I am too invested in something happening a certain way, or I expect it to be negative, then I am attracting the negative and pushing away anything positive that I want.  A few examples: my sister and I have been to a few events lately where there is a drawing for a prize.  Both times she has won something.  I asked her what she does to attract winning, and she said that she thinks about her name being called and her winning but then lets it go and doesn’t dwell on it.  And I think that is where I go wrong, that I get too focused on the thing that I want and don’t just “let it go” and so I am actually pushing it away.  I did a little experiment with that this week with some people who are a constant negative in my life right now.  I decided to just relax and not think negative thoughts about them and not be bothered with the things that they do that I don’t like.  That day the negative things that usually happen with them, didn’t.

There is one more thing that I have been thinking about lately and am finally writing about it.  First off, I LOVE the Energy Profiling system by Carol Tuttle, and am actually, finally, liking the way I look (well, more so anyway) because I have been Dressing My Truth and learning more about myself.  So, I have had so much to do the last month or more because of photography that I am constantly rushing and trying to get as much done as I can every day.  I have loved the photography stuff, but have not liked rushing and having so much to do because of the energy type that I am – it is going against my true nature.  Which is a negative just by itself, and then it seeps into other ways of bringing negativity into my life.  So I need to figure out how I can do the things that I love but stay true to myself.  I’m not sure yet how to do this.  And I need to write more in my blog.

My sister and I went down to Carol Tuttle’s Center for Living Your Truth in Draper for an open house she was having.  I am SO grateful that I went!  It seems that every time I go down there for something, issues come to my realization and then I can tap on them and be aware more so I can change my reality.  And I am realizing more and more that we DO create our reality.  Whether it’s a lack of money, or a need for drama so that I will be noticed and not fade into the background, or whatever.  I love that I am learning to live my true nature because of Energy Profiling, which greatly includes the Dressing Your Truth aspect.  I am trying more to live it, and get rid of behaviors that are not really me and don’t support who I really am.  It’s a learning process!  I am so grateful for Carol Tuttle and for the inspiration she has received, and then for the ability and desire to share it with others.  And I am grateful that she was giving away books and signing them, and that I got to talk to her for a few minutes and tell her how grateful I am for her and how much the information has changed my life.  She was also grateful that I told her that.  Unfortunately, I was very stressed while I was there about money and the lack of it that I have.  Fortunately, however, my sister recognized that in me and felt the stress I had and we talked about it, bringing it to my realization, and now I am off to get rid of that negative so that I can manifest an abundance and not always a lack.

I tapped on the issues I have been feeling lately about money, and I feel so much better.  I asked Chris to do an arm test to make sure that I am now creating prosperity, and I am.  Whew!  I need to keep it going now.  Also, I sent an apology and thank you email to someone that I might have offended because I wasn’t grateful for something I received this morning.  I feel better now that I forgave myself for not being grateful, for creating some drama, and after sending the email.  I feel like I have done all that I can do to remedy the situation (it wasn’t anything huge, but I need to even take care of the smaller things) and now I can learn from that experience, move on, and create more positive experiences in my life.

I haven’t talked about Carol Tuttle’s Dressing Your Truth and Energy Profiling in a while, so I’m going to now.  I realized that I am a Type 2 movement person a few months ago and have been dressing (plus hair and makeup) that way ever since.  It took me a little while to get used to it, but I LOVE it now!  I am having fun shopping (I used to HATE shopping, never thought I looked good in anything, didn’t know what to look for, would buy things and never wear them because I felt stupid in them, etc.) and I now feel good about the way I look every day.  Her system might not be perfect (what earthly system is?), but she has SO much great information that I just adore and I am so grateful for it!  Dressing this way also helps me to be validated in who I really am.  I don’t have to pretend to be someone else.  I am great for me and it feels awesome.  To give you a little testimony of this, I chatted with a woman today who goes to my church.  I don’t know her yet, and no one has ever given me such a huge and blatant compliment until now.  And I’m not writing this for my ego, but to show how this system just works!  So she told me (not verbatim), “I just feel that I need to tell you this.  I look up at you on the stand every Sunday (leading the music) and love the reverence you portray, and you are so beautiful.  You must have a gift for fashion,” I chuckled inside because I have not been fashionable probably ever, and that has been a huge topic of frustration for me, “and I just don’t have that gift.  I never know what to wear, but you just look so beautiful all of the time and I think it is so wonderful.” And she said that she couldn’t quite explain what she was meaning, but something about the whole picture of me.  I said that I think I understood what she was saying, but I unfortunately didn’t have time to explain Energy Profiling and Dressing Your Truth.  I was completely shocked!  I thanked her for that great compliment and she said, “Thank YOU!”  I don’t quite understand why she was thanking me for it, but the way I look lately obviously has had an effect on her.  I have never known anyone to thank someone for looking beautiful and “fashionable” (still not sure about that, but dressing my truth makes it seem that I am being fashionable because everything just works together and works with my energy).  Since I’ve been “dressing my truth”, people can tell that I look and feel better and they are noticing.  But most of all, I am noticing, and I love it.  I highly recommend everyone look into this.  Not so that other people will notice, but so that you will feel great about yourself and love the way you look.  I believe that God wants us to look our best, and feel our best.  And this information (Energy Profiling, and her book It’s Just My Nature! from the Store section) can help!  LOVE IT!!!

It’s been a very interesting day so far.  This morning I let myself get upset and hurt about something, but I wasn’t able to take myself somewhere and do EFT and meditate about it until hours after.  But I was aware of the problem during that time and noticed some things about myself.  Carol Tuttle’s Energy Profiling has helped me so much with this, to understand who I really am, who I have acted like and then I have been able to realize why.  I have been pretty obsessed about  figuring out what type I am because I wanted it right away.  But today, I feel like I am getting it on a deeper level.   So since I’ve been aware of these things, I have been able to notice how I am in different situations and then more “revelations” if you will, come to mind as to why I had been so depressed and rude for so many years and it just makes so much sense (even if that sentence didn’t)!  Up until just now, I was thinking about the Dressing Your Truth stuff, and how Carol Tuttle says we should dress the way we are to support us, but I wasn’t agreeing with that.  I thought that we can dress however we’re feeling.  But now, I think I’m going to focus more on dressing my energy type in the hopes that it will remind me who I really am and how I want to be, just like a Vision Board or Movie.  I have finally decided that I am going to go to the Dressing Your Truth class for my type tomorrow night.  So with the knowledge of Energy Profiling, I feel like I am able understand and accept myself and others more.  This is definitely a journey, but one that I am so grateful that I am on, and I know that this will help me immensely.

Another thing that I might have discovered is that sugar might be making my knees and back hurt, and my arm not be able to heal all the way.  I ate a lot of sugar yesterday, and this morning several places in my body hurt.  It is going to be very hard, because I have had an addiction to sugar for so long, but then, this is perfect!  I am trying to change and improve myself, and so it’s high time that I get rid of this addiction.  I just wasn’t ready quite yet.

I am so excited and relieved!!!  I can’t remember if I wrote already about Nicholas’ school situation, but I have been nervous about him going to Junior High next year, and want to get him into this one school where supposedly the kids are really nice and tolerant of the special ed kids.  I have been praying and just having faith that he’ll get put where it is best for him to go.  But I was told a few weeks ago that he is to go to another school where the kids aren’t as nice and there are lots of problems.  So I prayed, continued with my faith that things will work out for the best, and then called the district and asked if they could look into having him go to the one we prefer, and hopefully that could be a good fit for the special ed class.  I just found out today that they changed it so he is going to go to the one we want!  I then called his new teacher and told her of my concerns about Junior High in general for him and she reassured me that the kids are so awesome with the special ed kids and there have been zero problems for them from the general ed kids.  I am SO relieved, this is such a great day!  So, prayer and the law of attraction work, and if something is right and you have faith and don’t doubt, they will “work together for good.” (Romans 8:28)

My sisters and I have been talking about Carol Tuttle’s Energy Profiling and Dressing Your Truth lately.  Some of us (especially me) are having a hard time figuring out what Energy Type we are.  It seems very confusing to me because I have so many qualities in each of the 4 Types, I don’t seem to be dominant in anything.  So what does that make me – Type 5, a classification of my own?  If so, how can I “dress my truth” if there isn”t a Type 5?  My thought is, why do I have to be a certain Type and dress that way every day?  Can’t I dress the way I feel that day?  So if I am in more of a playful mood and want to dress like the Type 1 that I am feeling like that day, and the next day I’m in more of a “get it done quickly” mood and dress like the Type 3 in me, does that mean that I’m not “dressing my truth”?  I don’t get it.  For me, it feels better to dress the way that I am feeling.  When I was depressed, I felt so much more comfortable in black – because it’s a lower energy and I had very low energy.  If I’d wear a color, I felt very uncomfortable.  My sister yesterday told me that when I wear black, it makes me look kind of gray.  And I feel it actually draining my energy, I don’t feel as alive and happy.  Which means to me that I’m actually not the Type 4 like I used to be when I was depressed.   There is definitely something to say about energy, though.  I’m just not sure I agree totally with Carol Tuttle’s way.  Like I said, when I wear black, I have low energy.  Today I am wearing an orange shirt, even though I don’t look good in orange.  But I feel like having more energy, and it seriously gives me more energy.  So, I’m wearing it!  (I just remembered, orange was my favorite color for years when I was little – hmmm)  I’ve gone through my clothes and put away anything that is black and dark brown.  I’ll save them for when I go to a funeral.   I’ve been fixing up my house more the last few weeks, and I’ve noticed that the way I had my house that didn’t bother me before is bothering me now.  I have some darker blue couches in my living room but it was making the room darker.  So I put some light couch covers on them, changed some things around, cleaned up my piles of stuff, and when I walk in the room now I feel more energetic and happier.  There’s something to be said about all of this.

The dinner I made tonight was supposed to be like something that my husband makes really well.  He asked me how I like it, and I said, “It’s not as good as yours.”  Matthew (10) said to me, “Stop saying that other people are better than you,” with a serious and pretty forceful look.  He’s right, I still compare myself and everything I do with others.  I am better than I used to be, but I still do it alot.  And for my 10-year-old to notice that, it must be pretty obnoxious.  So I am going to work harder at loving myself for who I am and not comparing myself to others.

Last week I helped Chris put our cabinets back up in the kitchen, but it hurt my arm and hand a little (the one that I hurt 2 years ago and didn’t heal much until my quest).  If this would have been 4 months ago, it would have still been hurting and I wouldn’t be able to use my arm and hand.  But it’s gotten better quickly, and I am using it the same as I did before the cabinets.  Hopefully soon it will finish healing from the initial strain 2 years ago.

The last few days I have been taking Carol Tuttle‘s Energy Profiling test online to figure out what my energy type is.  It’s been frustrating figuring it out because I am different now in many ways than I used to be, so I wasn’t sure what my true energy type is.  But I’ve really pondered about it (and I prayed about it, too) today and watched the tutorial again and am comfortable that I am still a Type 4, like I used to be.  I am scheduled to go to the Dressing Your Truth next week, and I am excited to hear what she has to say and to see how I feel to “dress my truth”.  I should be getting her new book this week, so I’m sure I”ll be talking about that as soon as I start reading it.

I went on Matthew’s school field trip today and was gone for about 7 hours.  I never would have consented to do that pre-quest, I would have been an anxious, angry mess.  But I actually enjoyed myself today, was calm and relaxed, and was glad that I went!  I had a great time with my awesome son, and as I watched the other kids it made me so grateful that Matthew is mine!

I didn’t allow enough time today to get to an appointment, so I was rushed so much and so stressed that I was literally running around the house.  Then for the next hour or more I physically felt awful (mostly in my lungs, they felt compressed).  I’ve been doing much better with that lately, but today I slipped a lot.  It’s interesting to feel the difference in my physically when I act that way.  Stress definitely affects our bodies.

Just wanted to let you know in case you’re interested in Carol Tuttle‘s stuff that she is coming out with a new book on Tuesday, and she also has all of her products on sale (half off) until the 18th of this month.  I’m seriously considering going to a Dressing Your Truth class, which will be $35 instead of $69.  I’m interested in what she has to say about energy and the way we dress.  I’ll write about it if I end up going.

I try not to talk about my marriage much, but sometimes I feel like I should share some things.  Chris and I had a discussion today about a big topic that we don’t agree on and we both started getting a little upset.  But after a while I decided that I didn’t want to do that anymore, so I stopped myself from getting completely mad and turning the discussion into a fight, then having very bad feelings toward Chris which would effect everything in my life for days.  It feels so good to make a decision like that.  Now I need to work on not getting upset at all.