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This was in my email Inbox this morning.  When I read it, I felt such a strong sense that it is completely true!  It always helps me to know how much He loves me.  I hope you enjoy it…

“Think of the purest, most all-consuming love you can imagine. Now multiply that love by an infinite amount—that is the measure of God’s love for you.”God does not look on the outward appearance (see 1 Samuel 16:7). I believe that He doesn’t care one bit if we live in a castle or a cottage, if we are handsome or homely, if we are famous or forgotten. Though we are incomplete, God loves us completely. Though we are imperfect, He love us perfectly, Though we may feel lost and without compass, God’s love encompasses us completely.” -Dieter F. Uchtdorf, “The Love of God,” Ensign, Nov. 2009

I need to write down things to remember so I can look back at them and put them on my Vision Wall if I need to. If I don’t write them down, I forget what I’ve learned and then it’s back to square-one.  My Wall is getting bigger every week.

I’m listening to The Master’s Gathering this morning. Alot of them said that we need to turn off the main-stream negative media – it brings in negativity and we don’t need it. I learned that years ago and I don’t watch the news or read the newspaper. When there is something I need to know, I usually hear of it from someone talking about it. I know that we need to be informed about what is going on in the world, but we can do that without hearing the entire story about something and without getting sucked into the negativity of everything. If I do hear of something that has happened, I consciously remember that it’s negative and that I’m not going to let it affect me. Surround yourself with empowering material and people to get yourself out of the victim mode and get into empowerment. Love, joy and abundance is the nature of the universe.

Carol Tuttle says to take 15 minutes twice a day to meditate or do the energy circles, or write down I Am statements.

I actually WANT to go on walks now, it’s absolutely amazing! No matter how hard I tried in the past, I just couldn’t make myself do it. And if I’d actually go, I hated it. But now, I find myself thinking in the day about when I get to go! I feel great while I’m out. I either go with Chris and we talk about positive things, or I listen to positive things and think positive things the whole time. Maybe that’s the key, thinking and feeling positively the whole time?

I just re-read what I wrote on 1/25/09 about getting butterflies when I think about something that I need to do, and I wondered when that would go away. Well, it’s going away!

It’s really hard for me to be positive and happy living with people who aren’t positive and happy! How can I get this to be easier?

I am so down tonight, I don’t know why. I feel like giving up again. This is just too hard. I got ready for bed crying and being upset the whole time even though I did lots of EFT, prayed, etc. But I just had this feeling of despair. I tried so hard to have good feelings before going to sleep, but they wouldn’t come. I finally fell asleep, but it was fitful.