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Before I understood about Energy Profiling, I assumed that: people are different in the way they do things, but, we all should pretty much do things the same way.  Since learning about Energy Profiling, I am grasping that everyone is different, and they are not made to do things the same way.  For instance, when I meditate or need to de-stress or do some tapping, I need to go to somewhere quiet and secluded, and it helps even more if I lie down.  I can feel the negative energy leaving rapidly when I do these things.  But the energy that my body has is more calm, subtle, flowing, and introverted (Type 2).  For someone who has an energy that is buoyant, light, random, and social (Type 1), they most likely can’t go somewhere secluded and sit there, they would probably need to do something with more people, or go do something fun as they meditate and tap.

Another thing about Energy Profiling that has helped me so much, is in my business.  When Chris and I (we’re both Type 2) were first starting out our photography last year, I thought I had to be the Type 3 (swift, get-it-done) that I had been for many years to get people attracted to us.  But right from the beginning, things haven’t happened that way – people have come to us first, and it has been uncomfortable and unhappy for me to act like a Type 3.  I had a huge “a-ha!” this morning as I listened to Carol (Type 3) and Jon (Type 2) talk about their relationship and how they naturally do things in life.  Jon said that things just flow to him, and he doesn’t have to try to be like those people who have the swift energy.  And I realized that I don’t have to do that either, and that things HAVE been flowing to us!!!

It is so beneficial to know about Carol Tuttle’s Energy Profiling – in every aspect of life!!!!

A quote from Bob Proctor that he says in The Secret keeps coming to my mind, over and over, the last two days, “If you don’t know how, it will be shown to you.  You will attract the way.”  I’m sure I am remembering it because I need to remember that, particularly with the two issues I am struggling with this week.

Yesterday I noticed a few things about my meditation that I wanted to share.  When I first started meditating and relaxing by lying down and breathing, it was hard to notice a difference.  But now, I adore meditating because I can literally feel the tension leaving every area of my body and positive energy being replaced.  It is such a neat feeling!  I can remind myself wherever I am to calm down, breathe, release tension, and focus on positive things, but lying down and completely relaxing is still many times more powerful.  The way I meditate might be completely different than how someone else does.  I lie on my bed with 2 pillows propping my head up so I am as comfortable as possible (it takes me maybe 5 seconds to do this) and I usually close my eyes at first.  I usually say things slowly like, “I release all tension, I release all frustration, I release all negativity, I release all fear,” etc. as I breathe deeply and literally feel those negative feelings being released.  Or I may just think those things.  I can almost always feel my feet pulsing a little and it isn’t very comfortable.  And if I can think of anything to forgive, I’ll say those things out loud also.  Then when my mind is saying to me, “Ok, this is boring, move on!” I will either do some EFT, look at my Vision Wall (usually the larger print sayings that I can see) or just think about my goals that I am trying to achieve (i.e. “It is easy for me to love unconditionally”, “Money comes to me frequently and easily”, “I am the Body for Life Champion”)  I usually smile while I am laying there (it helps that I am alone!), and I can feel my body tingling and particularly my feet pulse but now with a positive feeling.  I know I am done when my mind starts to wander, or I start thinking that it’s getting boring.  It is interesting, as I am writing this I can feel the same feelings as I do when I am lying down meditating!  I always feel so happy and at peace when I am finished.

Another harder morning. Definitely not as hard as my “old self”, but not that easy, either. I took offense at something too which is making it even harder for me to be positive and happy. I said some forgivenesses which helped a little, now I need to focus on getting myself happy for a few minutes.

I said my prayers and I felt better, then I did my energy exercises (from The Promise of Energy Psychology by David Feinstein, Donna Eden, and Gary Craig) while breathing fairly deeply and looking at my Vision Board Wall (I do the homolateral exercises since my energies are switched still. I know they’re switched because I have someone push on my arm while I put my other hand on my head. But I can’t remember now how exactly to tell, and I can’t remember which book it says it in.)

In the mail the other day was a March of Dimes and a Leukemia Lymphoma donation envelope. I never pay to those since I’ve always been in debt and didn’t feel like I could give to those causes, plus I give a 10% tithing to my church already. But I’ve been reading about giving. When we don’t give because we think we don’t have enough money then we’re putting ourselves in the “lack” mode and that we need to help others and give money, even more so than we would normally. So, I did. Instead of throwing the envelopes away, I put $2 in each and sent them off and had feelings of gratitude that we do have money and I can help others. It felt really good! I know $2 isn’t much, but for me it is and I think that’s what matters.

Knowing now what my children’s aura colors (and thus their real personalities) are is helping me to understand them better and be more accepting of them. Pamala Oslie is so awesome!

While I worked on my website, I listened to Carol Tuttle’s “Affirmations to Change Your Life Now”. She says that “I am” are the two most powerful words which to create. She explains when Christ says, “I am that I am” it means He is the Creator. Interesting, I had always wondered what that meant!!

It’s so interesting to me (and a little frustrating, but I’m trying to be positive) that sometimes certain methods of healing will work for me, and other times they don’t. For instance, some days looking at my Vision Board and Mind Movie will really give me a happiness and joyful feeling, but today, I’m having to go deeper than that. Just those simple things aren’t really working for me. I just lay on the bed and meditated for a few minutes and breathed deeply (breathing always helps) and I thought of doing some EFT. I have NO idea why I’m kindof down and grumpy today, so I just tapped on, “I’m feeing down and negative for some reason today”. After doing that for a few minutes, I definitely feel better. Still not what I’ve felt before, but better. So I need to not be discouraged that what I usually do doesn’t work, I just need to keep doing the many things that I’m learning about and I’ll get there.

This just came in an email to me today: “’For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord.’ (2 Timothy 1:7–8.)” God does not want us to fear, and He has given us power and a sound mind and love. So the negative stuff obviously comes from the adversary because it doesn’t come from God!

I’ve been thinking about my knees and it keeps popping into my mind about what it says in James 2:17 “Faith, if it hath not works, is dead.” I take that to mean that we can’t just have faith and do nothing to help things along. We can’t expect Heavenly Father to do EVERYTHING for us. For instance, we’re told that we need to exercise to be healthy. Well, if I don’t like exercising, does God accept that and say, “Ok, since you don’t like to do it, I’ll just strengthen your body for you.” Nope. He doesn’t work that way. So, since I’ve prayed for healing, maybe Heavenly Father expects me to do “works” as well. I did EFT, but I think maybe He wants me to strengthen my knees on my own. Especially since I haven’t had regular exercise in probably 10 years, my knees are weak. So I need to do my part to strengthen them. Yuck. But I want healing, so I’ll do the dreaded walking every day and specific knee-strengthening exercises so that I can eventually dance and do other fun exercising. I’ve done knee strengthening exercises in the past, and while it definitely strengthened my leg muscles, it didn’t help my knee problems. But, now that I am focusing on using The Law of Attraction in a positive way, maybe this time it will work!

This was very timely, but an email just came from The Science of Getting Rich about Actions. It talked about how we shouldn’t just work hard for something, but think about what you want first, and really believe you can have it, then act (and it should be Inspired Action, like it says in The Secret)

Ok, I just went on a walk. I almost didn’t go, but I just stopped thinking about it and got ready and out the door. I said affirmations to myself the whole way (only about 15 minutes, but it’s a start!) and really tried to breathe deeply and lots. Now that I’m home, I still feel like I want to focus on breathing and do it deeply. It feels really good. I still want to research more into it, but I looked up breathe and Breath of Life in the scriptures, and I found in Genesis 2:7 “And the Lord God…breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.” I find that very interesting. By God’s breath, man came alive? Yes, breathing sustains our life and if we go for more than a few minutes without it we die, but why? Why can we go without food and water for days longer, but not without air? Then in Genesis 7:22 it’s talking about during the flood of Noah, and how when the flood came everything died, “All in whose nostrils was the breath of life, of all that was in the dry land, died.” I want to research this more later.

Adam is in his room screaming at me. He’s been sad, angry, non-compliant, argumentative, and not listening all week. If I am getting better, why is he getting worse? It’s been nice, though, that I haven’t been mean back to him. I’ve stayed calm, most of the time. I did raise my voice once to him, but I am trying to be proud of myself that I did so well! And I FEEL better about myself when I do positive things, which makes me in a better mood!

Wow this has been a roller coaster of a day with my moods. I can’t seem to stay positive. This evening was very rotten, I got mad at Adam and was just totally frustrated with him and the other boys. I always feel so bad when the boys go to bed with me mad. After they got in bed, I’ve been sitting here in the quiet, reading my scriptures, then doing some EFT on Adam and me. I think I know what his problem is this week, that I’ve hardly paid any attention to him, other than telling him “no” or just micro-managing things he should be doing. I’m sure that he hasn’t been listening to me, yelling at me, saying I’m being mean, etc. because he’s starving for my attention, poor little boy. Tomorrow I will do better. Hopefully that is the answer. In the meantime, I’m trying to forgive myself and be positive. I need to go to bed early.