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Before I understood about Energy Profiling, I assumed that: people are different in the way they do things, but, we all should pretty much do things the same way.  Since learning about Energy Profiling, I am grasping that everyone is different, and they are not made to do things the same way.  For instance, when I meditate or need to de-stress or do some tapping, I need to go to somewhere quiet and secluded, and it helps even more if I lie down.  I can feel the negative energy leaving rapidly when I do these things.  But the energy that my body has is more calm, subtle, flowing, and introverted (Type 2).  For someone who has an energy that is buoyant, light, random, and social (Type 1), they most likely can’t go somewhere secluded and sit there, they would probably need to do something with more people, or go do something fun as they meditate and tap.

Another thing about Energy Profiling that has helped me so much, is in my business.  When Chris and I (we’re both Type 2) were first starting out our photography last year, I thought I had to be the Type 3 (swift, get-it-done) that I had been for many years to get people attracted to us.  But right from the beginning, things haven’t happened that way – people have come to us first, and it has been uncomfortable and unhappy for me to act like a Type 3.  I had a huge “a-ha!” this morning as I listened to Carol (Type 3) and Jon (Type 2) talk about their relationship and how they naturally do things in life.  Jon said that things just flow to him, and he doesn’t have to try to be like those people who have the swift energy.  And I realized that I don’t have to do that either, and that things HAVE been flowing to us!!!

It is so beneficial to know about Carol Tuttle’s Energy Profiling – in every aspect of life!!!!

There have been many times over the last few months that I have thought about writing here, but couldn’t formulate what it was that I wanted to say.  I would really like to work a little harder at it and get writing again.

I have been faced with several challenges which at the time I felt like they would last forever and couldn’t be remedied.  I have slipped into a bit of a depression at those times, but knew that I would not stay there.  I know too much now, and have come so far, that I feel like even though I might have a weakness to depression and negativity, I have been strengthened so much this year that the hard feelings don’t last long.  One of these occurrences was a few days ago.  I felt like my world was collapsing, my heart was breaking, and my emotions got the better of me.  I felt so strongly that I needed to attend the temple (my very favorite place to be) and maybe gain some insight and feel better.  I don’t think I’ve gone to the temple with such a heavy heart before, so this was a different experience for me.  I cried through alot of it, and felt very low.  Although at the same time, being in such a holy place, I felt buoyed up and felt God’s Spirit and that He cares about me.  That night after returning home, some things were told to me that I hadn’t known previously which melted the problem away.  I feel so blessed to have the knowledge that I do have, both from what I’ve been learning about this year on My Quest, and also the knowledge I have that comes through my religion.  What peace and help they bring to me.  I am so grateful that I can share a little bit here in my blog with others.

My friend and her family have been our first photography clients, and yesterday as she was over here purchasing more photos from us (I am SO grateful to her for believing in us, giving us photography experience, and for purchasing some of our “Fine Art” photos for her home and for Christmas presents!) we talked just a bit about her life right now.  She was diagnosed with breast cancer a few weeks ago.  She said she has been given such strength from Heavenly Father and that she knows she wouldn’t be able to go through this without Him.  Today in church she shared with the congregation that instead of feeling anger about her situation right now, like so many people feel when they have a similar tragedy, she feels comfort and peace.  And I wondered if that is one of the differences between most survivors and those who don’t make it.  The survivors have faith and good feelings, and most of the ones who perish feel the opposite which just I believe just feeds the cancer and makes it worse.  However, I don’t believe that all those who perish from this disease were angry and negative thinkers.  My mother died of breast cancer 5 years ago, and I believe that although her cancer was caused because of anger she had felt about a situation, she had forgiven, had faith and had good thoughts and feelings as much as she could during the 2-year trial, the cancer did go away for a time.  It came back, and she died because it was just her time to die.   So I guess what I am trying to say is that I believe that our thoughts and feelings can affect us for good or bad, but also that Heavenly Father is ultimately in charge and if He feels that something should be a certain way, then that is how it is going to be.

It has been a long time.  Today I realized some things that I needed to write down.  I have been spending so much time with photography, and loving it, that I have let many other things slide by with hardly a notice.  I know that when you love what you do and don’t want to stop, that is a good thing but also can be a bad thing.  Good because we should all do what we love, or love what we do, and bad because it can consume all of our thoughts and time and we neglect other worthy things.  I am very guilty of this, and it makes me feel guilty.  So I know that somehow I need to greatly reduce my photography time so that I am not neglecting all of the other things in my life that need attention.  I have also realized that I have let myself “forget” to be positive and grateful.  I have been complaining quite often the last few weeks and being negative about things, which by the law of attraction it is bringing more negative situations into my life.  I need to reverse that immediately before I get down too deep.  And the last thing I realized is that when I am too invested in something happening a certain way, or I expect it to be negative, then I am attracting the negative and pushing away anything positive that I want.  A few examples: my sister and I have been to a few events lately where there is a drawing for a prize.  Both times she has won something.  I asked her what she does to attract winning, and she said that she thinks about her name being called and her winning but then lets it go and doesn’t dwell on it.  And I think that is where I go wrong, that I get too focused on the thing that I want and don’t just “let it go” and so I am actually pushing it away.  I did a little experiment with that this week with some people who are a constant negative in my life right now.  I decided to just relax and not think negative thoughts about them and not be bothered with the things that they do that I don’t like.  That day the negative things that usually happen with them, didn’t.

There is one more thing that I have been thinking about lately and am finally writing about it.  First off, I LOVE the Energy Profiling system by Carol Tuttle, and am actually, finally, liking the way I look (well, more so anyway) because I have been Dressing My Truth and learning more about myself.  So, I have had so much to do the last month or more because of photography that I am constantly rushing and trying to get as much done as I can every day.  I have loved the photography stuff, but have not liked rushing and having so much to do because of the energy type that I am – it is going against my true nature.  Which is a negative just by itself, and then it seeps into other ways of bringing negativity into my life.  So I need to figure out how I can do the things that I love but stay true to myself.  I’m not sure yet how to do this.  And I need to write more in my blog.

“If you are experiencing it you are creating it. Life always mirrors back to us what we believe, even if we don’t think we believe it! Always.” Carol Tuttle has this on her Facebook page.  I am going to print it out big and put it on my Vision Wall.  Love it!!!!  Still trying to “own my stuff” today, and it feels awesome.

Since I’ve had my new camera that I manifested (finally!) a few months ago I have been taking quite a few pictures and trying to learn more about photography.  I haven’t had much time to do it, and I have far to go still, but I have just taken a BIG step this week by entering some of my photos into a photo competition (the theme the photos have to be  is “duality”)!!  I am really excited about it!!!  Wish me luck!!